It is that time of year again and I am another year older, supposed to be another year wiser. I am starting to LOOK OLD and am definitely feeling the ageing process take hold of me tightly, suffocating and wearing me down. Is this any reason to be celebrating??
I suppose I should be happy that I have survived to live another year!
Yes I survived- to PAY another years worth of rent, another years worth of listening to people moan about how the end of the world is going to happen this year, another bloody year of tax going up (see previous blog) to see the state of this country just debilitate and rot away like the rest of my insides......
I don't plan to have surgery anytime soon. I just pray and hope that I age like a fine wine souring in time (JOKE)
The older you get the more you see your friends break away and begin adult lives like having families of their own and they no longer want to accomodate you on your binge drinking weekends. It gets to the point where they don't even attend your Birthday drinks but just click 'MAYBE' on the event invite on FACEBOOK. HA! Who needs enemies when you can't even age gracefully and jovially with the people who watched you on your epic journey to ZimmerframeVille and Bedpan County. And then there are those who do not even reply..............
Those people who would ordinarily laugh and drink with you and toast you towards your Twilight years are to remain silent, so wrapped up in their own miserable lives, while they get FAT and OLD and wish they looked as good as you.
Birthdays for me end to be quite a sad time anyway with a good pal of mine, Mark (RIP) passing away on my 16th birthday many moons ago. A dear friend of mine, Roger (RIP), now on the other side would have been celebrating his birthday a week after mine. And my beautiful sorely missed Grandmother or Nan as we called her would also have been celebrating hers shortly after. As I sit here and appreciate the time I've spent on earth with the people I love and cherish, I at the same time, miss the people from my past who made me who I am today but who are no longer here to see the present product.
So... to all those who are going to embark on this unforgettable journey of me turning 31 I THANK YOU. I thank you for caring enough to want to spend time with me even though you know none of us will remember it in the morning!!
I thank you from the bottom of my heavy old heart because who knows how long we are to remain on this polluted and corrupt earth for?
Happy Birthday to me
